Miranda Crowley


The last thing on Amy’s “to do list” said: buy more milk.
It was the only thing left unchecked by Monday morning.
It was the last thing she had ever written. It is the
sweetest poetry I have ever heard her write. Missing her
has made me literally romanticize her grocery lists. Literally
wander the dairy aisle of the deli hoping I’d find her there.
Literally, miss her.

Now that she is finally gone, I realize that I have always
mourned Amy. Always spoken about her in the past tense,
always looked half through her, always had the eulogy
prepared in my head. From the moment I saw her, she was
already fading, already shifting. A rotting thing inside a casing
of flesh. Her death was so damn slow. An existence without
her is so damn long.

On the morning she died I sat at my vanity and watched my
skin peel back with green. I felt the sewer water spill over
my cheeks, burning a landfill of missing her down my chin.
The tears kind of smelled like her. My face in the mirror kind of
looked like hers. The wet spots on my shirt were kind of like her

If she were here, she’d beg me not to cry over spilt milk.
But I will never be rid of this stain.

©2016 by the author. Used with permission.

About Miranda Crowley
Miranda Crowley is an eighteen-year-old poet and prose writer from the Central Jersey area. She has studied creative writing and poetry at the Middlesex County High School of the Arts, and has previously been published in books like the Young Authors of America. She is indebted to Charles H. Johnson, a fellow Jersey poet and mentor, for her creative education and poetic direction.
Writer's Statement
Like any writer alive during a time of political and social strife, I use my craft to bridge the gaps between communities, dismantle communication barriers and speak for the voiceless. Having grown up in a diverse but harmonious household, my poetry often revolves around the cultural differences and social linkages between individual people. In this way, I am committed to bringing the stories of ordinary people to life, in order to create a more understanding and compassionate world.